The epiphany

Today a light bulb went on and I could not believe it. Ever since the Crush came into my life I have been thinking WHY, WHY, WHY? A temptation? Perhaps, but it was not a big one. A diversion? What for? Today I suddenly realized that I was shown what a nice gift God actually gave me. I lived with the proverbial silver spoon in my mouth and while I knew that, I was not stirred to any particular thanksgiving about it. For my state of life I have been given a great gift of celibacy and chastity. Oh, yes, it is a gift. A horrendous, wonderful gift. Interestingly that I was shown this gift once before and years ago in a peculiar message. The message then was to practice and to strive for this gift. I realized now that I had received this gift to the fullest and that it gave me incredible freedom. I was no longer a slave but a son.....or daughter in this instance. I was living in the Kingdom of God as a free person. There was the silver spoon. It was humbling.